When I was ten years old, I visited my grandfather
for the very first time in southeast China. Due to the others passing away
before my birth, he was the only grandparent I had left. I remember entering
the rural village where he resided and being shocked at how differently the
environment was compared to what I was used to. The lack of technology and his
simplistic style of living was new to me, but what shocked me the most was that
he was happy in this condition. During my visit, much of what I learned about
his life was through my parents. It was difficult for me to communicate with
him directly since he spoke a Chinese dialect that was only native to
the surrounding village area. My interactions with my grandfather consisted
mostly of smiles, hand gestures and using my parents as translators. As a
family, we spent three days in the village and left aboard a train to
catch our flight back to the States.
A week after the vacation, I remember my
mother receiving a phone call during dinner. Suddenly, she started
bursting into tears midway through the conversation, but I was ignorant to what
was going on. Later on, I found out that my grandfather had passed away a few
days ago in his home at the age of 89. Upon hearing the news of his death, I
was not emotionally shocked nor devastated because I could not yet comprehend
the significant role that he would play in my life in the future.
In the following years, I have realized the need to
treasure the people and things around me because they could be gone at any
moment. I came to regret the fact that I never got to know him better as a
person. Through my maturation, the love for my grandfather grew and although we
were separated by a language barrier, I recognized the love he had for me as a
grandson. His death has taught me to become a less passive person, that I could
not afford to take opportunities for granted, and to fight harder to achieve my
goals.
Honestly, this experience is not one of my proudest
moments. However, the tragedy of my grandfather's passing has proved
to be one of the most enlightening and significant experiences in my life.
In the past, my academic performance was just
an arbitrary way to compare myself to my peers. Fortunately, my
grandfather's passing changed that by bringing meaning and depth into my life.
Academic excellence is no longer a meaningless undertaking, but
rather each experience is another opportunity to grow, each class is
another opportunity to learn, and achieve something more substantial than a
letter grade.
Essentially, one of the most tragic
events in my lifetime taught me that I must take a more active role in
achieving my dreams and aspirations. Not only did I take my family and
education for granted, but my own potential as well. I feel
internally indebted to my grandfather because he has enlightened me
to never stick to the norm of being an average student. Instead, I must venture
out into the world and discover the many possibilities that are
available to me. I will forever carry the memory of my grandfather with me, along
with the lessons of his passing to guide me to reach my potentials and goals.
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